So last week, Haven had to wear pink on Wednesday to her school and all I could think about was Mean Girls...and specifically this scene:
And so this got me thinking about mean girl voices, and especially the mean girl voice that sometimes resides in my head. You know the one: the one that says to fit in you should be something completely different than who you really are. It's the one who reminds you of your awkwardness and who silences your voice ("Gretchen, stop trying to make Fetch happen. It's not going to happen!").
I sat in a meeting this past week and throughout it's duration I had an inner dialogue with my mean girl voice. I had ideas to offer but with each idea that popped into my mind, I could hear the mean girl pipe in with all the reasons why my opinion was not valid or stupid. And at one point I realized that I literally had not offered a single opinion in the discussion when I was invited to that table because my opinions matter!
I'm still working on silencing the mean girl in my head, but I'm starting to discover that the only antidote is the love of God. On the mornings when I've actually spent a little time receiving His love I am more confident that I belong at the table. I'm more confident that the ideas and opinions that I have are of Him. I can tell the mean girl to go sit at a different table and I can actually let MY voice be heard.
Look at what Paul has to say about this in Romans:
Did you get that? Our mean girl voice (which is really the voice of the enemy) does not stand a chance when Christ is in the presence of God at this very moment sticking up for us!
Let that sink in for a second.
Jesus has your back and it is His desire that the mean girl voice does not faze us. Why? Because of His love.
It's time friends that we let our voices be heard. You have brilliant ideas. You have opinions. You have wisdom and passion and tables that you are invited to sit at. Most importantly, you can hear the voice of God. Please don't let the shouts of the mean girl get more air time in your mind than the whispers of the Father. Believe that He loves you. Trust that He is fighting for you.
And it IS Wednesday...so wear pink or black or whatever you want with the knowledge that you are loved and there is nothing that can separate you from His love!