A couple of nights ago, Selah and I were in the midst of her nightly bedtime routine. After Josh tells her a story, she and I always have “talk time” which has included discussions ranging from why she is EXACTLY like Elsa from Frozen to deeper questions about death and how babies come into the world (help me Jesus!). I never know what to expect during talk time – the mind of a 4-year old is a wonderous thing, but I have come to cherish this bedtime ritual, and even though I’m often exhausted by the time “talk time” arrives, I get energized by her enthusiasm and sometimes deep questions.
Earlier this week was no different as I sat down next to her and she started off a discussion on weddings. I have no idea how weddings came to her mind, but mostly she was lamenting the fact that she has NEVER been a flower girl, and ALL of her cousins have!
“Mom! Peyton has been a flower girl…and Molly was one too…and Maci! Mom, Maci is EVERYONE’s flower girl!”
I was about to refute this claim, when I thought through her cousins and realized that she was in fact correct with her findings. Each of her cousins have been in a wedding in the role of flower girl, and we have listened to their delightful stories of pretty dresses, flower petals, and the fun of weddings!
I tried to explain that Maci was a flower girl because she had several single aunts and uncles while all of Selah’s were married when she came into this world. My reasoning didn’t seem to make much of an impact, and Selah asked if I had been a flower girl when I was younger. Although I wanted to stand with her in solidarity I had to tell her that yes, in fact I was a flower girl for my aunt Lisa…and so she was faced with the sad fact that EVERYONE she knew had been a flower girl except her! This is very real heartbreak for a 4-year old!
So she began asking me about single friends in our lives. What about…Annie? What about…Jay? What were their plans for future flower girls? She was on a mission that night to find a solution to her dilemma!
After much talking, I said maybe it was something she should pray about, and as soon as that statement left my mouth I immediately regretted it. What had I just done? I felt certain that I had just set my child up for disappointment, because in all reality she wasn’t going to be a flower girl anytime soon. Why would I have thrown the prayer solution out there? Ugh! Parent fail.
She immediately liked my idea and so we began praying, and I listened as she beautifully pleaded with the Lord to make her a flower girl. She would do a very good job, Lord…and all of her cousins had been a flower girl – wasn’t it her turn?
It was such a sweet moment that I wrote a quick status update about it on facebook (because that’s what one does now when their kid is adorable), and I may have prayed my own prayer that God protect her little heart from the inevitable disappointment that I knew would ensue.
Oh Paige, of little faith!
Two days passed and I all but forgot about this prayer when I had a friend come by my office. Jessica and I have known each other for a few years as she was in our college group when Josh and I led Zoe. She and I met periodically over the years to talk about faith and her walk with the Lord, and a few months ago she asked Josh and I to officiate her upcoming wedding to Sam.
When she stopped by the office I assumed we would talk about scheduling their pre-marital counseling as I told them that we should start in April, but she had other plans.
Jessica sat down and said that she had been thinking for sometime about asking Selah to be her flower girl. Cue my astonishment & joy! She doesn’t know Selah that well – she is closer to Josh and I, but said that Selah had come to mind a few times and had wondered if it would be strange to ask this little girl who she didn’t know well.
But then, she had a dream 3 nights before in which she had 2 flower girls – Selah & Layla (a beautiful girl from Uganda that my cousin is in the process of adopting). She told her fiancee Sam about the dream and they decided to ask the girls to be their flower girls.
Jessica talked to my cousin first about Layla, and as she retold the dream my cousin asked her if she had seen my facebook post! Jessica had not seen it as she hasn’t been on facebook for a couple of weeks…and so that sealed it!
As Jessica told me how this unfolded I almost burst into tears! How good is God? How much does He love us and care about us? Even those small desires in our hearts – He cares! I’m not saying that everything you ever pray for will get the answer you hope for…but I AM saying we serve a God who loves His kids and I believe He really delights in blessing us.
Selah was downstairs at Kids Day Out, so I took Jessica to talk to her, and you should have seen her face. She didn’t know what to think about this offer – it was like she wanted to jump up and down and be surprised all at the same time…so she just giggled and said yes. Later on she did jump and dance & she immediately called her daddy to let him know her exciting news.
As she told her BIG news to everyone she saw, I noticed that two different things came out of her mouth:
“Jesus answered my prayer!”
“My dream came true!”
Thank you Lord for making her dream come true. Thank you for being a God who hears our cries and pleas. Thank you for loving us and loving even the small things that feel big to our hearts. And help us…help people like me who are small in our faith…who forget how to pray courageously and with abandon. Help us to trust that you are a good God who loves and lavishes His kids with good.