Yesterday, I wrapped up my 8-week Bible Study that I wrote and have been teaching on Tuesday mornings called Road Signs. I selfishly asked the Women's Ministry at our church if I could lead this study as a way to force myself to finally write out the words and messages that have been in my head and heart for over 3 years. If I'm honest, I was hoping to connect and share with women, but mostly I was stepping out with a personal motive - looking for a catalyst to light a fire under my tush so that I could say Yes to the Lord and remove the gnawing pressure that seemed to always hang above my head.
I was told that typical morning studies usually bring 20 ladies and that by the end of a study there are around 12 who remain and walk across the finish line. Now, I'm no Beth Moore so I was praying and expecting 10 or so women to show up, and I selfishly hoped that half of those 10 would finish just so I could gauge whether or not what I had to share was valid.
So, 8 weeks ago I walked into that classroom with a lighter heart - because I had finally said yes, but guarded expectations not wanting to hope for too much. I had to blink my eyes several times on that first morning as almost 50 ladies sat in that room expectant and ready for what this study would bring. I remember holding back tears as I opened that first morning in prayer - realizing in my heart that perhaps God was up to something...
8 weeks later as I surveyed the room yesterday, it was crystal clear that God had much more in store for those Tuesday mornings than just a platform for me to try out some material. You see, over the last 8 weeks we've had over 75 women walk through the doors and slowly open their hearts. EVERY week I have watched as women have not just taken notes on what I had to share, but also stepped out in vulnerability to share their own stories and minister to one another.
Yesterday I sat in awe as I watched women in their 60's loving on young mothers. I watched as women of every race cried together and opened the Word together and prophesied life and truth over one another's lives. Yesterday, I watched as 4 women who now take on the roles of grandmother provided lunch for over 30 women who could stay afterwards to eat...they provided not because I asked but because they have connected and want to pour out their wisdom...and listening ears...and love on those younger.
I ate lasagna and the most divine homemade coconut cake as kids played and mothers talked and grandmothers held babies and women shared their stories...and I realized - THIS - this is what God was up to...
I came with my feeble words and a desire simply to say yes to Him...and as I obeyed...as I brought my loaves and fish...God had taken my obedience - my offering - and had multiplied it far beyond what I could have ever imagined. He took my gift and multiplied it into a community - a community of women who were learning to love one another.
And now we were breaking bread and deciding we shouldn't stop meeting...because although it started as a catalyst to get my words out...God created a safe place where their words mattered too.
Road Signs is finished (I'll be teaching it again starting April 24th in the evening - lots of Lubbock ladies were upset it was just in the morning)...but Tuesday mornings are not finished - we are taking March off but will resume meeting in April - allowing our community to continue to flourish and inviting God to multiply and transform as only He can do.
Wednesday, March 6, 2013
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Of COURSE this made me teary.
Love this! Love what God did..and is going to continue to do!
And I'm so glad you stepped out...for you AND for them...
Well done.
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Love this, Paige. You are doing such important work. eshet chayil!
I am so so, encouraged, Paige. Thank you!
What an encouragement to hear how God is working. I too lead a Bible study at our church and had no idea all God had in store for us. This is my first experience leading and I have to admit that I was scared to death. I totally second guessed saying "yes." I have served in children's ministry for several years, but women's ministry is a new place for me.
This is how God starts with us, you know? I did this EXACT same thing about 35 years ago (although I didn't write my own material then). . . and then went to seminary midlife and pastored for 17 years. You just never know where that stick-your-neck-out-obedience will lead. This is just lovely. Thank you so much.
Thank you Paige for sharing. I have followed your blog since the first time I randomly clicked on next blog. God is divine and He does exceedingly abundantly more than we could ask or think. I am reminded of his first miracle, turning water to wine. He saves the best for last. Recently, I stepped out to write a book, named after my blog The Lady's Rage. I would love for you to read it and offer your true and honest feedback. It is available at amazon.com . Thank you for your transparency and love for God.
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